A Love Letter to My Son..

Dearest Little Man,
From the moment I saw you on the sonogram screen and found out you were a little boy...I was in love. I can remember crying those tears of joy knowing that I had you inside of me. You were perfect even before I met you. I will be honest that I was scared. I was scared I wouldn't be able to share the love I have for your sister with you. Scared I wouldn't be able to raise a boy. Scared of everything.

But then...you were born. You entered the world with ease. Labor was simple and in three pushes...there you were. They laid you on my chest and you didn't cry. You just laid there looking up at me and secretly I think you didn't cry because you knew you were home. Home on your mamma's chest where you belong. I cried tears of joy that day too because you were so perfect. We snuggled there in that moment for what felt like a lifetime. I soaked in every minute. They let you lay there with me for 30 minutes before stealing you away to weigh and measure you. I couldn't take my eyes off of you. That day...I fell even more in love with you.

In the month following we struggled with breastfeeding but I never gave up and I will never give up on you in your life. I fought and I cried and I struggled but I kept pushing through to make sure I could give you the best nutrition possible and here we are now...8 months and going strong.

I hope that one day you will read this letter and know how much I love you. Even now, after 8 months, I still look at you and can't help but cry at how wonderful and sweet you are. I still can't believe you are mine.

I hope that in your life you are able to love people, all people, the way I love you. I hope that I can raise you to be a man of God and to treat woman with the upmost respect. You are such a blessing to me. You have brought me so much joy...and I can't thank you enough for that.

Some moms complain about being up all night but nursing you every two hours at night is not a burden. You are my baby and going without sleep is the least I could do to repay you for all of the sweet smiles you give me everyday. I love those quiet moments in the middle of night nursing you as you fall back to sleep.

It's amazing how God made you so perfect. I have never seen such a handsome little baby boy. You don't laugh, you squeal and it is the cutest thing in the world. When you nurse you look up at me and grab my face. When I enter the room you immediately smile at me and every time it melts my heart. Son, you are so beautiful...and I can't get enough of your sweet baby face.

I realize I'm rambling as I'm sure you know I always do but the point of all of this is that I want you know that I love you with the strongest most unconditional love. No matter how old you are I will never stop hugging you or kissing you..even in public. I will always be here for you for whatever you need. As you grow up I may not always agree with the choices you make in life but I will always support you.  There is nothing I wouldn't do for you and throughout your life I will always do whatever it takes to make sure you are happy.

You will always be my baby..even when you're 30.

"I'll love you forever, I'll love you for always
Forever and ever my baby you'll be"

Loving You Always,
Your mamma