It's amazing how one day I can be so upset and unable to cease crying then today I feel strong. I am still hurt but I can control it and be strong. Last night when I went to bed I prayed. I prayed for peace, strength, wisdom, and courage. I prayed for a good night's sleep. I prayed to wake up with a new day. Today when I awoke all the things I prayed for I received. Today I felt like superwoman. I broke through my sadness and cleaned my house. I did research on everything I will need to know in the coming months. I looked into job opportunities and apartments. I was positive today. I only cried once. I got up the courage to talk to my dad. I survived another day. Now, I just need to tackle tomorrow. I CAN do this. I am taking everything one day at a time and one step at a time because everything is so overwhelming. At the end of the day I just tell myself, if I can just get through one more I will be stronger. I heard a song on the radio yesterday that brought me to tears but it felt like a sign. Please listen to this song. No matter what you're going through in your life know that every day you will get stronger. Just take it one day at a time and remember to be thankful for the blessings in your life no matter how low life may feel. In the midst of all of this mess I look into my baby girl's eyes and I see a miracle and a reason to go on. Every time baby boy kicks...I feel so BLESSED. Two beautiful children to share my life with. To love. They are my world and will always be. Even in such a mess I am lucky and blessed. I will get stronger.