25 August 2010
A Tribute to My Husband
"You could have bowed out gracefully but you didn't. You knew enough to know to leave well enough along but you wouldn't. I drive myself crazy trying to stay out of my own way, the messes that I made but my secrets are so safe. The only one who gets me, yeah you get me. It's amazing to me how every day, you save my life."
- "Every day"- Rascal Flatts
This was the song I was supposed to sing at our wedding reception before I got sick. From the day we met this song has been the one that expresses how I feel towards you. I remember when we first started dating...It was the happiest I had been in so long. You kept me smiling and you kept me laughing. When we met my parents were in the first stages of divorce and even with such pain going on in my life...It was the happiest summer for me. I knew you were the one for me. I knew I wanted forever with you. I never wanted those smiles to fade or that laughter to end.
When I found out I was pregnant, you could have left. You could have went on with your life and forgotten about me...but you didn't. You stepped up, asked for my hand, and created a life for us. I can never thank you enough for the person you are. You accept me for who I am and even with our differences, you love me. We have been through so much in such a short amount of time but you are still here holding my hand and telling me everything will be okay. These is no one I would rather spend my life with.
You are an amazing father. I don't I tell you that enough. It is so clear to see that you love Little Miss with all your heart. Since the day she was born you have been such a support system for me. We are a team and you have proven that to me. There is never a time I feel like I'm too tired that you don't do all you can to help so I can rest. I have never seen a better dad than you. I am so proud to call you my husband and Little Miss' dad. There is no doubt in my mind that as she grows up she will look up to you and love you so much for all you do for her. She is so lucky to have you as her father.
I miss you so much it hurts. My skin longs to feel your touch again. It's amazing how when you spend so much time apart you begin to miss the little things. I miss waking up next to you and I miss your smell. I miss the way you twitch in the middle of the night...I always wake up when you do...its like a little reminder that you're there. I miss your back rubs while grocery shopping. I miss your laugh. I miss when you sing in the shower. I miss the pranks you play on me. But most of all...I miss just being together. I cannot believe after all this time there is only a few weeks until you come home. Thinking about the moment I get to see you and hug you gives me butterflies.
We've had our fair share of hard times but I am so thankful that through it all we have stuck together. Our love is stronger than anything and I look forward to more kids and growing old together. You are the man of my dreams and the love of my life. Don't ever forget that. In just under 3 weeks we will celebrate our 2 year wedding anniversary...I just wish we could celebrate together. I love you so much baby and I am so ready to have you home.