I've never been one to except help. If someone offered to watch my kids or make me a meal while Husband was away I would always say Thanks but no Thanks. I'm tough and independent and I hate anything that makes me feel weak. Like crying. I hate crying.
It's been almost 5 weeks since Husband left. I work full time. I can count on one hand how many times I've actually made a big homemade meal since he left. It's sad, really.
Well I've had two people offer to make me dinner and I've excepted both times. Last night my neighbors offered to take Little Miss to dinner with them...I jumped at that and spent two hours cleaning while Little Man 'helped'. It's these kinds of actions from others that are helping me survive this deployment.
And for once in my life I've learned to except the help others are offering. I can't always be strong and I don't always have it all together.
Hang in there. You can do this.
ReplyDeleteI love you. Sorry I am not always there for you in the best of ways. Know that my prayers, love and admiration of you never cease. I love you, chickadee.
ReplyDeleteAccepting help is a hard thing for me as well, but I know I feel really good about myself when I help others, so I try to focus on that. People wouldn't offer to help unless they genuinely want to. So good for you for taking people up on their offers! And remember, even when you don't feel strong, YOU ARE! You are going through SO much!
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