A Not so Normal Post

As I was watching the Buried Life tonight, I had tears well up in my eyes. No, it wasn't because they got a lock of Robert Pattintsons's hair or RPATS as I learned tonight some people call him. I actually have never seen Twilight before in my life and have no desire to. But it was because of the beautiful girl, Lexie they had on the show and of her desire to make suicide and depression a topic to be talked about. Not many people know this but I did a week internship with To Write Love On Her Arms 2 and a half years ago. TWLOHA is an amazing organization. Now, this next part is hard for me to say and I'm not sure I can even begin to explain it all so I guess I will just be short and maybe one day I will be able to open up about it all but for now you will get highlights. Basically, I too once suffered from depression and still do suffer from horrible anxiety. I spent quite a few years being bullied and it took it's toll on me as a person. I survived by the grace of God and have spent the time after learning about bullying, depression, suicide, and self injury. I read books like Please Stop Laughing at Me and Please Stop Laughing At Us by an amazing women named Jodee Blanco. I also attended one of her seminars. She helped me understand why I was bullied and how to come out of it on top. I also am prepared if my kids ever have to go through something so horrible. Beyond that I one day found TWLOHA and was simple amazed at the day of it all. When I was chosen for my internship I was estatic. I felt like it was my time to share my story in hopes of helping others. I met the other interns and immediately we became like a family. Although, we don't all keep in touch all the time we will always have a bond and a connection and I will always love those people so much. If you have never heard of To Write Love On Her Arms please go to their website right now. Click here.

Also, if there is anyone out there suffering from any of the mentioned things please know you are loved beyond what you know and that there is hope even in disaster. Hugs to all of you.

So, I'm asking all of you...

What do you want to do before you die?